Near or Apart

One of Zoe's favorite things to do is watch our wedding video.  She has plans to wear my dress at her wedding, which I think is really sweet.  As soon as the video is over, she's wondering where she was during our wedding.  Since D & E were there, she really doesn't understand.  That leads to a long line of questioning about how that is even possible.  I try to distract her with candy or something because honestly, I don't know how to answer those questions.  Once I told her she was in heaven waiting for God to give her to us.  That started a whole bunch of new questions about heaven and if she was there, she should remember more!  That's a whole other post.

Our wedding was perfect for us.  We have dads who are pastors, so it was a LONG ceremony.  It was so personal because they both know us as a dad would.  N's dad wrote our vows that were special for us.  To be totally honest, I don't really remember them.  I just remember getting choked up part way through. 

The life I had envisioned for us on that day isn't anywhere near where we are today.  I thought we'd have a couple kids, have a house and live happily ever after.  I had no real basis for how much work a marriage is.  Which is actually a HUGE blessing.  I think if I had any idea then what I know now, I would've tucked the train of my dress in and ran.  I wasn't much for challenges then.

Today, on our 6th Valentine's Day as a married couple, I'm amazed at where God has brought us.  How He has guided us despite the fact that we don't deserve it. 

He has used N to show me love.  Despite all our for better or worse, sickness and health, near or apart, that love for each other has been constant and has continued to grow deeper. 

On this Valentine's day, we are apart and yet our marriage is stronger than it has ever been. 

Happy Valentine's day N, you've enriched my life, helped me understand love and made me laugh the entire journey.  I fall more in love with you each day.  XOXO - Kelly