I can remember the day vividly. It was a beautiful September day, much hotter than anyone expected. I slept in, ate some breakfast, stopped by the reception hall and then ran off to the salon for my pampering. In all that time I felt excited and content.
I met N in our high school youth group 12 years prior. He was a skinny band geek. Yet he was always wanting to hang out, always wanting to be near me. I was a girl who had never had that kind of attention. It totally freaked me out that some guy would actually like me. He convinced me to go to two dances with him. To this day, those were some of the best memories from high school.
He was also my first real date. We went to see The River Wild. He insisted on holding both my hands. I found it odd and annoying. It was actually one of the things that caused me to break up with him exactly 24 hours later.
He's also the one who kissed me after that movie. He made my knees go weak and my stomach jump all over the place.
For some reason all the fun we had together was overshadowed by so much and God's timing wasn't right.
Until 12 years later when I would be getting into my wedding dress and commiting to love, honor and obey him.
It was a perfect ceremony. It was personal and fun. Even though I don't remember too much of the specifics, I remember feeling safe, loved and home in N's arms. At the time I didn't think it possible that my love for him could grow. These last 4 years have brought with it a fight: a fight to love one another, a fight to stay alive, a fight to keep our marriage progressing. All that fighting has paid off.
Neither of us are the people that were at that altar 4 years ago. We're better and we're more a team than I could've ever hoped for.
N, thank you for loving me, for not giving up on us, on me. You have shown me more about love than I knew was possible. It is my honor and privilege to walk this life next to you. I fall more in love with you each day. You are my hero, my partner and my love.
Happy anniversary. May the next 4 years be full of more adventures and less snakes! I love you.