But bacons tastes so good. On everything.

I'm usually not a big resolution girl. The thought of having to stick to something for a full 365 days is such a daunting task. It freaks me out. If I vow to give up desserts, it becomes all I crave and then I eat the sweets for the meal because technically it wouldn't be dessert. Because you know, it was the whole meal. I'm very good at making excuses as to why I cannot follow through with my resolution. Instead of starting out the year on that note, I just don't make resolutions.

Basically I want to be a better version of me by the end of the year than I was on January 1st, but it's broad and not so overwhelming. Besides I know there are LOTS of areas where God can mold me more into who He wants me to be, so I give it to Him to determine the area that needs the most work.

I've got to be honest, it's much more difficult than eating dessert as a meal, but the outcome is much better. Last year God was obviously working on my faith. It was bumpy, VERY BUMPY, but I do have a different outlook on life now than I did January 1, 2008. I have a deeper faith because of it. Resolution accomplished. Thank you God.

This year is different. I'm still going to let God work on me and determine where and how I need to be the person He has designed for me to be. I've also thrown in a little resolution of my own. Which is why I'm here today.

One week ago today I started a weight-loss challenge. It's a pretty intense 12-week program that requires a diet and exercise regime 6 days a week. The exercise part of it is easy. I love the gym. I would go twice a day if I could. I have no idea why. It's one of my happy places. In fact, for the last week I've been losing 90 minutes of sleep to get there. Surprisingly, I'm not cranky. Which makes N happy.

It's the diet side that I don't really do well at. I like bread. I like pasta. Apparently I eat enough of those for two people. I have what they call a portion control problem. If I like it, I eat it. Lots of it.

I'm writing this because I need accountability from all three of you who read this blog. I'm going to post an update every Friday with my stats as one of my Friday Five Faves. I'm hoping by putting on the Friday Five FAVES, it will be that I lost something I hope to never find again. It's that brain trickery I'm so good at.

I know I need to do this and to be successful. I want to be the mother who shows her daughter healthy habits. I want to be able to keep up with her. Shoot, I want to be able to keep up with N. Just walking beside him wears me out. Not to mention all the cute, spring fashion. My wardrobe needs an overhaul (this is where N starts to get light-headed).

While I know God is working on and holding me accountable, I am using this blog here to hold me accountable to that resolution.

I'm off to have some egg whites and low-fat cheese while I pretend it tastes like bacon.